avirtualdiary

  This picture is dated 12 January 2021.  2020 - I had started my UPSC preparation in September 2020 when I was in 3rd year of my Bachelor's degree. Things were not going well given the year I was in - at an individual level or globally. Third year was making me count the missed opportunities, mistakes, could've beens and what not of college life. I was filled with rage and helplessness. UPSC seemed like a good engagement for the wandering mind. I would study Geography in my dark room alone by taking the globe and shining my phone's light on it to understand rotation and seasons. It was a dark time truly, and most of my days ended how it's shown in the attached picture. Just a blue glare coming from my devices. I soon started slacking off. I would miss hours worth of classes trying to rely on recordings, miss those trying to rely on books and ultimately got left behind in Economics and History. The damage was substantial and I lost stamina because of not being able to t...